My first forced

So i been dating my boyfriend for while now at this point and sex has slowed down a lot too the point where I been cheating on him behind his back sometimes, nothing too wild except letting two guys use me one time on a air mattress. I wouldn’t cheat very often just here and there too get my urges out ya know? So I was texting this one new guy that I recently met through social media and he seemed like a genuinely nice guy, he made me laugh and smile etc and I figured I would go over there and hang out with him, I honestly didn’t plan on anything happening until it did. I just got off work and I drove over to his place and welcome me in his room he’s about 21 and still lives with his mom and I’m 23 yr old dirty blonde about 135 lbs with B cups with a booty. Anyways we started making out and I gave him a blowjob for few mins and I told him that was it, I couldn’t give him anything else so I went to the bathroom too let him cool off and when I came back he smiled at me and said we’re not done here and he pulled my leggings off as I told him no and he fondled his hands all over my tits. He tried too force my legs open but I tried too keep them shut so he eventually got tired me resisting and just held my legs up above my head/shoulders and pushed into me. At this point, I was crying and told him to stop but he didn’t and kept fucking me violently until I started crying and he held his hand over my mouth and told me to shut up so no one would hear me, eventually, he flipped me over on my stomach and pounded me from behind until he cummed in me and then asked me if I enjoyed it, I immediately got up and put my leggings on with cum running down my thighs and got into my car and drove home too sit in the bathtub and kept my mouth shut and told no one. I haven’t told anyone this story but kinda wanted share it cause I know some guys like abuse whores like me