Why I love being MarieRocks

Obviously, MarieRocks is not my real name, but she is the real me. Being MarieRocks completes me in a way that nothing else can.

I admit that I am by nature a self-indulgent narcissist. I admit it. It really is all about me. I’m not saying that I am mean or insensitive to people, I just prefer to be in charge of how things play out. Maybe ‘control freak’ is a more accurate phrase. But no one should be this way towards other people long term, so I needed to find an outlet where it was truly all about me and no one’s feelings were hurt along the way.

The internet has made the word ‘avatar’ part of the modern vernacular. According to the dictionary, it has two different meanings. First is ‘a manifestation of a deity or released soul in bodily form on earth; an incarnate divine teacher’. The second and more modern definition is ‘an icon or figure that represents a person in the computing world, such as video games, internet forums, etc..’ These two definitions describes my MarieRocks alter ego perfectly. I really get off on the ultimate self-mind-fuck of embodying both of these definitions.

‘A manifestation of a deity’… A deity can only be as such if it has worshippers. One cannot claim to be a deity if one has no followers. No followers, no deity. I am so grateful for the multitude of loyal fans I have accumulated since the birth of MarieRocks. Every single day, I receive numerous enthusiastic comments for fans, declaring me “the best” something they have ever seen. Best boobs, best butt, best body, best masturbation, best orgasms, best woman over 60, etc… I love the head rush I get from them, but I am especially blown away by the number of those comments that declare me . It is not lost on me that, of all the thousands of women on the internet, these fans worship me above all others and pleasure themselves to my videos every day. I love knowing I am the muse for so much wanking all over the world.

‘An icon or figure that represents a person in the computing world’… There is no doubt that without the internet there would have been no MarieRocks. She is the icon that represents my sexuality, my exhibitionist side. And the internet is what has allowed me to express that sexuality in the specific manner of my choosing, because the internet by its nature is a fantasy world. When I log in, I instantly go from a typical suburban woman to a sexual performer. After thinking about it, that is actually what I would call virtual reality. True reality is that I achieved my sexual fantasy of becoming a porn star, and I did it my way. My life rocks!

For me, exhibitionism is such a part of both definitions. I am not an exhibitionist in the ‘walk-down-the-street-naked variety’, but more like ‘hidden-naked-in-plain-sight’. There is just something utterly exhilarating to me about getting naked in a hotel room, opening the floor-to-ceiling window curtain wide and masturbating where I can be seen by anyone in a surrounding building who is looking my way. I don’t want to be seen naked by the general public walking by, who is not intending to see a naked, orgasmic woman. But if anyone across the way is intentionally looking in windows hoping to see something fun, I want them to see something they will never forget.

If I sound full of myself as you read that, you are likely correct. I’ve never been accused of lacking confidence, that is certain. Its just that being MarieRocks has me on such a fucking high. And, I have all of you to thank for that. My gratitude runs deep.

Sincerely, MarieRocks xoxo