Charlie or Charles Johnson

मेरे बारे मेँ: 1) "I dig dope, and I dig sex"(fiction article, national men's mag, early 1970's, I do not do illegal dope in my state, and pot is illegal in my state)...............2) "big dicks are prime"(Beverly Morris, national men's mag, mid 70's-mid 80's)................1+2=3) in my afterlife don't make mine "too small"("too small" said the St. Augustine, Florida 👙 beach bunny when we stripped down at her digs that night after a surf's up 3 to 6 feet semi-glassy day at Blowhole on Anastasia Island with sunny sky and warm temp, 1975-76) again(😠), don't make mine the "cute" length of the Doc Johnson 4" Naturals party gag dildo advertised online in the past as "the little guy, too cute, complete with his little balls" again(😠), don't make mine such a small length that girls here at xhamster said "your penis is pathetic"(Asian) and "your penis is small, I'm going to go out and find a huge cock to suck, goodbye"(Russian) again(😠), the next time in my sex afterlife make it with wellhung sex appeal to females, and don't be chauvinistic toward them as a group thus subject to social psychology since they were a social group of people as opposed to an individual female which would have made her subject to psychology, don't make mine subject to a tv commercial that says "Sorry Charlie, only great tasting tuna get to be ********," sounding like a slanderous conspiracy against me with the name of Charlie implying my cock isn't flavorful enough to perform fellatio on, I've had to live with that tv commercial a long time, I fought back this week by coming up with the stage name of Cim Cimarron...............4) I never had an std, I had mono, or mononucleosis, the kissing disease, in college in 1971, at the college infirmary I had to keep going back and getting my fingertip stuck with a huge wide lancet and the female lab tech would suck on the rubber tube to withdraw the blood, the metal lancet was about a half an inch wide, and it hurt so much that I quit going, lancets now are tiny things, I got stuck with one last week at the endocrinologist, nothin' to it............5) if anyone who knows me or who used to know me finds me here and visited here to look up people they might know to say to themselves they would never appear here like I am and that I must be out of my mind to be on here, now you have your minds in the gutter after seeing all the fucking just as much as I do, so don't have a holier(😇) than thou attitude about me, I am on here because girly books are my personality I began developing when I was 12 or 13 years old in 1963 or 1964 when I found 5 grocery bags full of girly books, and had a hand holding neighborhood girlfriend younger than me who wanted to see them, which she did, that was 60 or 61 years ago from now in 2024............6) I have very thick hair and wear it long, I wore it to my waist in the 90's and tied it in a ponytail with rubber bands, I have never had it braided into a ponytail or pigtails, a braided ponytail is a sign of being in a social relationship since braids are made by someone other than the person getting braided............7) I just created a blog on Blogger yesterday October 19th of 2024, and I named it Cim(cum in mouth) Cimarron, I was inspired by Cimarron, NM, which is known as the original city of the Western US, for all I know Cimarron was named after cum in mouth from fellatio but used a capital letter C to keep quiet about it in public.............8) for a religion that I need to have as an exit strategy for my passing on, mine is non-participating Episcopal Christian, I never had to get baptised by immersion in this religion, I was christened as a baby instead, meaning I would never go to Hell, this is the religion I was raised on, but was always about 100% non-participating because my family was a corporate gypsy family so there was no need to get chummy with anyone at a church because the friendship or acquaintance wouldn't last, an Episcopal Christian believes in going to Heaven immediately upon passing on, they do not believe in waiting afterwards in Purgatory for an indefinite time which is what Catholics believe in, if I sin in sex, well, "the devil made me do it," and I believe in the crucifixion of Christ Jesus to pardon all my sins during life and at the end, I've been absolved of sins most recently in 2021, and in about 2014 twice, all that being said, the fact remains to be seen that I have an intersex, shemale-like, clit-sized and behaving retractile penis when I sit, it retracts back in to my pubic Mound of Venus which I shave to try to derive every fraction of length to have it extend outward, it gets on a hardon then outside of my Mound of Venus if Eros has created a sex opportunity for me, it feels downright thick after reaching level 2 in a PassionPump, making me realize I need to be wellhung in my afterlife to go with my Christ Jesus-like image of male long hair and goatee, also that's what some females who wanted to believe in me wanted from me like I stated here in 3), Christ Jesus was not a eunuch and became circumsized, I as Charles Johnson am a glorified eunuch with closed balls, not eunuch open labia lips, but I have the flaccid clit-perched penis at the top of them which I didn't ask for and neither did the females who believed in me, they had the 45,000 year old wet flesh stalagmite and stalactite cave wall art back in their cervix areas that they wanted to turn me on to, what would the world have come to if I could not go to an art show? I can attempt to play this shemale role as if it was a role in a play, I'm glad I took an English course in college studying various plays with acts, scenes, enter stage left, enter stage right, and was tested on those which were in a paperback book, earning a C in the course which was taught by a female prof, I don't have any other way to avoid it, I know that I will get my wellhung male penis in my afterlife to go along with my long hair and goatee immediately upon my passing on, I surmise some female goddess or goddesses wanted me to temporarily try their sexualities out, wow, thanks for the gift horse, I shouldn't stare a gift horse in the mouth, I should accept the goddess gift somehow, maybe watch straight long cock vids which I do, I use them as a tool to practice being in my afterlife, I apply their long cock images to my cock, realizing their cock lengths must be from where I need to go to get mine, all the while not wanting to plagiarize them, that skill isn't a walk in the park, to try to act like you are all male when you aren't yet but need to be and eventually will be in your afterlife